Selena Gomez gave herself up with an open heart in the documentary film My Mind & Me broadcast on Apple TV in which she discusses depression and her life journey. But that’s not all. A few years after her breakup with Justin Bieber, she explained, in her documentary, that her label had made a traumatic request to her. Between two sobs, she says that he wanted her to release a new song with her former companion. Only, the singer simply wanted to be appreciated for herself and not always be equated with the man who shared her life at some point. It is the president and general manager of Interscope Geffen A&M Records, John Janick, who would have made this request to him.
“I don’t know what John is thinking, I want to talk to John. I don’t want to disappoint John. I don’t want him to think he’s signed some fucking kid from Disney,” she confides. Teary-eyed. “It sucks too, because the whole song. He called me this morning about the song with Justin, like, when am I going to be good enough on my own?” associated with Justin Bieber. “When am I going to be good on my own, without needing anyone to be associated with?” she continues. On the occasion of the release of her documentary, in the columns of Rolling Stone, the one who is also an actress returned to the suicidal thoughts she may have had.
Selena Gomez doesn’t hide her suicidal thoughts
“I’m going to be very transparent with everyone about it: I’ve been through four treatment centers. […] I think when I started to hit my early twenties, that’s when it started to get really dark, when I started to feel like I had no control over how I felt, whether it was really great or really bad.[…] I thought the world would be a better place if I wasn’t not there” she confided, without filter. The 30-year-old singer has never hidden anything about her past or her mental health issues.
His phases of celibacy, known at age 25, did not help his mental distress either. “I grew up thinking I would be married at 25. It devastated me to see that I was so far away. It was so stupid, but I really thought my world was over. I never integrated into a group of cool girls who were celebrities. My only friend in the industry is really Taylor [Swift, ndlr ], so I remember feeling like I didn’t belong […] These Did materialistic things make me happy? I just didn’t like who I was, because I didn’t know who I was,” Selena Gomez continued. Strong words that must be difficult to say for a young woman who is still trying to move forward.
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